found out I’m to be a bridesmaid in a cousin’s wedding and I’ll be honest, I’m not too sure why. I’m not entirely close with my cousin, and for some reason, I question motivation behind these decisions, decisions that include me.

Am I overreacting to assume that the only reason why she’s asking me to be in her wedding party is over pity, or familial obligation? I made the mistake of posing that question to my mom just now and she flipped out, so…

I just always get the feeling as if I’m being ‘tolerated’ by everyone and everything, when I know I deserve to be loved by the ones that are the most important. So when I was told I was to be a bridesmaid, my immediate internal reaction was ‘oh, so she feels forced by her mother to do it, bc why would she actually consider me otherwise?’

🙃 my brain hurts. Always.

I’ve been working on a cover of ‘fruit’ for quite a while but I wanted to share a little snippet of the isolated vocals. 🙂🩷

“We’re here

We’ve arrived at the highest plane of creativity

Where all ideas are born

Which apparently consists of stock images of people, places and Post-It notes on glass

A human centipede of creativity ate itself.”

“We humans are not mere spectators. We fill the silence of the universe with a symphony and illuminate the darkness of space with sparks of imagination

Let’s take an idea back home

Let’s take an idea back home

I think we’ve got it

I think we’ve got it, too

I think we’ve got it

I think we’ve got it, too”

This moved me so much. 🩵💚

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a work of (f)Art 💨